brooke monroe

Why is it that when christmas comes around i always turn into a giddy little girl? I sing along with christmas songs, i wear red and green, i count down the days; i become a ten year old. But it makes no sense. Because i know what is going to happen: i'm going to fight with my mother, i'm going to stop speaking to my father, i'm going to forced to go down and visit my perfect family which will then make me feel inadequate, i'm not going to get a damn thing i actaully want, i'll go broke. It will be horrible. Yet every year i get excited. What is it about this time that makes people so childlike? Whatever it is it's a good thing!
People need to stop talking about whether it is p.c. to say "merry christmas" and people need to stop argueing that saying "happy holidays" is evil. That is not what this time of year is about. This is the time when you love your friends, love your family. There is joy and celebrating. Visiting people you don't see at all. Who cares what people call it, or why it came to be. All that matters is that you take time to enjoy it!
Happy Christmas. Peace on Earth. Happy Holidays.
<3

21.

so jonathan is leaving. forever. and ever. and not coming to peru. and i will no longer see him every week. nothing is going to be the same. it's hard to drive when you are crying so hard. how can he leave us. how can he do this to us. i don't know what i'll do with out him there.

today was all right.
didn'go to first period.
didn't go to last period.
went home.
talked online.
went out.
got W. and L.
drove around.
then the night ended with a bang...and i thought my life was over. but everything turned out all right. better then all right. actually i'm super happy considering the circumstances!

as every dedicated Harry Potter worshiper (as i am) knows, as well as anyone whose looked around the past few days, today it the opening of HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE. When going to Harry Potter one must have the appropriate companion. The companion has several criteria.
1) they must not hate Harry Potter. It is not required that they be as in love as you are but a certain level of tolerence is required. (often it is better that they do not love HP as much as you)
2) they must not mind you pointing out every little way the movie has varied from the book. it's who we are and what we do.
3) they must not by popcorn or any food that is not HP related. it distracts from the movie. duh.
4) they must not mock you if you choose to wear a shirt that says "Mrs. Draco Malfoy"
5) they must be able to laugh
6) they must let you watch the movie and not distract you with kisses, or attempts (sorry significant others)
7) they must arrive early with you to ensure seats that are not behind stupid kids in wizard hats
8) then when the stupid kids arrive they must mock them with you....it is one thing to wear a shirt, quite another to wear a wizard hat.
9) they must not laugh at the serious parts. ever. you WILL pretend not to know them
10) they must talk about the movie over and over with you on the way home

I have found someone to go to Harry Potter with me. :) not that i was worried i would...but. :)

now my only problem is whether or not going to see this movie with W. constitutes as cheating on D. (even though we are not technically together and he justs acts like we are) ADVISE ME OH GOD OF HARRY POTTER!

i've decided to lose weight. so i don't eat until around 4-5 then i have a small healthy meal including low fat meals, fruit. things of that nature. it's very small but i make sure to have a variety so i don't die.
the side effects of not eating and doing the daily things. in addition to softball conditioning is that i tend to become nauseated and my head tends to spin. this worried me the first time it happened. however i'm slowly learning to ignore the anusea and just concentrate on the spinning.
which is kind of fun.
i'm hoping to drop 10 pounds by christmas. or (since i'll be working out more) at least have my stomach toned more.
tata.

new york was awesome. i love long island. my daddy bought me the purrtiest ring for being on the honor roll. i got myself a guardian angel necklace. we went and saw my half-brother's grave. i cried. but he's my gaurdian angel, i can tell. the party was awesome dance with a hott guy named colin and with a hot guy named bruno. they were the "dance leaders" hired. lOl. they were so funny. all the adults were drunk by the end and it was soooo funny. it was awesome to see my uncle craig again. i drove up there and slept the whole way home. got NO homework done. owell. who cares. long island is cool. i'm moving to newport. i took so many pics on my phone. and i sent like 8 million texts.
hottness.
ciao

sat- went to the movies w/ william and lauren and met todd and jen there. it was more fun before they showed up. saw 2 is the scariest movie ever. combining a bunch of my fears into one long freaky FREAKY movie.

sun- um. went to church. slept. GOT A NEW PHONE. it rocks and i LOVE it. went to betsey's party. that was fun. drove home at like midnight scaring myself with thoughts of rapists jumping out of the trees so i was going like 90mph.

mon- went shopping with lauren. bought the best new shoes. went to chilis. went to my house and chilled. GOLD DIGGGER! lOl. i heart that girl

tues- going to the movies with the parentals. *tear* but it sounds like a semi-interesting movie Good Night, and Good Luck or something like that. also have to do homework and babysit. talked to donie to figure out wtf? but he was a douche and didn't say anything. whatever.

talking about the trail of tears:

chin up emo kids (9:11:05 PM): or think of it this way
chin up emo kids (9:11:09 PM): if it weren't for all of that
teen y bopper sc (9:11:26 PM): haha
chin up emo kids (9:11:29 PM): you'd never get to watch (insert shitty california centered sitcom/drama here)
chin up emo kids (9:11:43 PM): whatever works
teen y bopper sc (9:12:05 PM): hahaha
chin up emo kids (9:12:06 PM): *damn i love that shitty california centered sitcom/drama*
teen y bopper sc (9:12:31 PM): anything about OC is godly and due to a number of dead indians
teen y bopper sc (9:12:37 PM): i mean "first americans"
chin up emo kids (9:13:11 PM): yes
chin up emo kids (9:13:14 PM): the american's
chin up emo kids (9:13:20 PM): whose right to occupancy
chin up emo kids (9:13:25 PM): is subordinate
chin up emo kids (9:13:25 PM): to
chin up emo kids (9:13:31 PM): the us right of discovery
teen y bopper sc (9:13:58 PM): of course.....europeans are always dominant
chin up emo kids (9:14:24 PM): duh!
teen y bopper sc (9:15:12 PM): and the world makes sense and everyone is equal.
chin up emo kids (9:15:19 PM): no
chin up emo kids (9:15:25 PM): europeans are dominate
chin up emo kids (9:15:33 PM): i'm going to flog you now
teen y bopper sc (9:15:40 PM): **please note sarcasm*
chin up emo kids (9:18:14 PM): Peace, above all things, is to be desired, but blood must sometimes be spilled to obtain it on equable and lasting terms

From Luke, who is sending rather mixed messages.... since he was the one who wanted to "be friends":

pw3811different (9:41:22 PM): I was the hottest vampire you'll ever meet
teen y bopper sc (9:41:44 PM): you were a vampire! that is hott
pw3811different (9:43:43 PM): so is the wombat
pw3811different (9:43:57 PM): and you
pw3811different (9:44:04 PM): among other things
pw3811different (9:44:15 PM): wow
pw3811different (9:44:25 PM): i can't believe I said that




teehee.

Grey- i think i may like him, which sucks because he is young. very young. but he likes me a lot too. so that is good. and he acts older, and seems older, and "age is just a number" and all that shit. and he's fun, and funny, and nice, and sweet, and easy to talk to, and pressure-free, and carefree, and so naive about life it's refreshing.

"the other person who i will refrain from naming"- have to stop. is bad for my soul. but is very fun when we are together.

Townsend- evil bitchy lady who must die and who i will personally smite and get fired. hopefull she will be fired then smited. (smitted?). i dunno. but i'm tired of her lying and backstabbing.

Halloween. I have a crazy cool costume planned. need to get the rest taken care of. and find that top....hmmm.....*ponders where it might be stuffed*

hopefully will get my new phone tomorrow. *crosses fingers* everyone CROSS YOUR FINGERS. i <3 HArry Potter

IN:
Grey
Harry Potter
The 70s

Out:
"He who i refuse to name for my safety and his"
Townsend
My administrator

<3s to ma HomIEz.
lOl

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go there. i<3 it.

bitchesbitchesbitches.
i've told three people about this. and two of them wouldn't tell and if they did i really don't know how it could get back to anyone who would matter. but the other person it could. but i trust her so fucking much. like she's a really good friend. but lately certain things she has said haven't been adding up. fuckfuckfuck. i don't need something else to fucking stress about. why can't people be fucking satisfied with the drama in their pathetic lives and leave me the fuck alone. Ndina too! BITCHES.

i'm really nervous to go back to school tomorrow after being out for a week. i have so much to do that i just didn't feel up to doing. it's depressing. oh well.
i need to:
- do the journal response for business that was due a week ago
- do my history of america extra credit
- do my math homework

Okie i'll do the business and the math hw. but i don't know what to do for the history so i'll tell him i emailed it to him. then i'll do it tonight and give it to him tomorrow. i also should
put in a load of laundry and
clean my room. and
i need to take a shower,
straighten my hair,
fix my nails, and
plan outfits.

but then i listen to the gossip again and it swirls in my mind and i can't get it out. what does it mean? what to believe?

seconds after the last post i get an im saying that he misses me. and once again i'm pulled into a swirl of confusion.


good thing i love drama.

i hate being insecure. anyone else would just im the person and be like....is that me you're talking about....and if so......what the hell do you mean by it?
but i don't. you know why? because i can't. because that would be saying that i deserve an explanation, like i'm owed it. but i'm not.....not really.....you know why? because there is no relationship there. none at all. and everything i thought....is really bullshit....because people lie.

this whole week has been a really good one. what with luke and green day and school going well. saterday was fun, hanging out with my margaret, cc, and luke. and the whole final decision with luke to just be friends for now is actually a good one. because i'm not sure if i knew enough about him to actually have liked him, or if i was just being my retarded self and projecting an image on to him. but whatever, it all turned out for the better. thanks in a large part to lauren and cc listening to my crazy shit and being amazing friends. this week is going to be good too. i have my first home game tuesday so i get to dress up. (i need to find my uniform!) then wed. we get our summer papers back in history. then thursday we have another game and the IB meeting so i can find out everything. then friday the first football game with lauren. hopefully she doesn't bring no way. but yes! my lauren found a guy who will treat her good so that also makes me :)! so all in all life is good. o and miss emily has my pound cake so i will have to kill her and eat it all. or she could just drive over and give it to me! saving me the trouble of having to hide a body. and i was looking at all these colleges and they looked really good. it makes me excited these colleges. it's soo near and it gives me a goal. my uncle has some friends who went to Willam and Mary so he's asking around about GPAs and he's going to get me an appointment with the admissions officer so i can talk to her/him about my resume and find out what else i should be doing. because even though my gpa's not steller. i do crazy mission work, i'll be editor in cheif next year, i will be joining interact, cadence, possibly the young democrats. i'm also planning and starting some hurricane relief program at stuart. so it's not like i'm a horrible person. besides i do well in the courses i like! which is what matters. i was also looking at jmu (because my uncle has friends who went there) and i talked to arash and he said the english and history programs there are amazing so that makes me happy. but the averay gpa is like 3.5- like 3.7 or something. which i need to work on. i need to talk to my counsler. all righty. ciao now. p.s. my horoscope says i should be crative today so i think i'm going to start designing the decorations for my mirror!

green day concert= orgasmic.
keera is the best person to go to concert withs! i wouldn't have wanted to go with anyone else!
a nice guy saved my life many times by protecting me from heavy crowd surfers and the stage diver. he's my new best friend.
my feet hurt. i have no voice. i can't hear a damn thing. and i'm compleatly broke! BUT IT WAS WORTH IT ALL, TWICE OVER!
i have the best shirt in the world.

pw3811dif-------(8:29:13 PM): I just remember think she's still as beautiful as was when we first met


i love my life

xed out for reasons.

Intake:
watermelon
frosty (bad)

excersise:
2 hours of volleyball (relaxed)

think of me as you lie around all day. i'll be learning.